Youtube has become the next site on my Social Media chopping block. I don't watch anything when I'm at my desktop computer and I try very, VERY hard to not watch shorts from people I don't follow on mobile. I'm so glad I missed out on the TikTok hype because my ass would not be sitting down to write this blog post (or do anything at all really) if I was on that app. I think it's helping me be more productive, but it could also be the creative burst of energy one gets when they discover a new hyperfixation.

The main thing I do on my computer now when I'm not doing art or writing is... 3 card Klondike Solitaire. Playing over 1000 games of Sekmet Solitaire to get a gold trophy changed my brain chemistry. But the html version on Neopets is sooo slow, and I like not having a limit to how many times I can shuffle the deck. The site I use tells me how many turns it takes for the computer to finish a game, so I try to aim for a lower amount by playing smart. It also allows me to only play games that are winnable, which makes it feel less like a big waste of time and more like a puzzle to be solved. I can't believe I just typed up a whole paragraph on fucking solitaire. At least it wasn't a big essay on picross. God I need more picross in my life. I'm at the point where the only puzzles that feel like a challenge are 30x40+ grids. Help me.

Still haven't touched the scene document for Carrier. While having a "completed" story is great, it's also making me second guess all of the choices I made. Am I getting full use out of the themes I'm writing? Is the pacing okay? Does it flow properly? Are the character arcs satisfying? Is the backstory feasible enough to not have readers questioning it? I want to iron things out as much as possible but I also don't want fixing plot problems to transform into nitpicking imagined Cinemasins responses. There's also the worry that depicting horrific actions will come off as trying to sensationalize them. No matter how much I tell myself that I don't care, I can feel the eye of judgement looming over me.

I don't know, I'm rambling. Took my meds late today. You know how it is. I'll try to salvage what's left of it by inking more of the intro comic for my other website. I need to get it done so I can start on the less work intensive stuff. At least I get to draw a lot of fun expressions on the next couple of pages. Still have no idea how I'm going to approach color and I'm not looking forward to it.

Oh, also, I found an old 2019 Otasune comic I never finished that I'm going to try and finish this year. Pretty sure it was originally for a zine but I swapped to an illustration because of time crunch. It was meant to be 4 pages but past me never got past the 2nd page of sketching. Thanks past me! Spent some time last night scripting the rest of it out, maybe I'll use it as warm up material for the other comic.

Also, also, the slats on my bed have started slipping around and now fall out of place when I sit on it. They have no way of being screwed in place but I can't imagine my ass is wiggling the mattress around that much. I dunno!! Maybe I'll spring for the more expensive Ikea bed slats next time.

Current Mood: Ready to draw